hi bloggyy!!
haiz... had an ass day today...
No no no no... not becos of stressness or worried.. its becos of some fadzley usual pissed off feeling.. haha.. mok know wat i mean.. hehe...
haiz..AGM is next week.. and saying that im not worried is a lie of course.. hakz.. it was my 1st ever organising quite a big event... usually i organise small events.. hakz.. but... it was frustating really. Some people don't know what had been done and is going to be done. It IS going as planned. Schedules for the whole week is done, planning for the whole semester is done, setting up of the groups are done. It IS done and the things are at home now, not that it was not plan out yet. Yet, i was told to do things that i HAD done at home. It is just that i wanna get thing out slowly and not rush everything at once, that will really make me stress and a mess. It isin't my way of working to begin with. I meant it and maybe i should have said it. But saying it was quite pointless. It was pointless when things are not the way that i had planned anyway. haiz.
Yes, now we know our budget. Damn. I didnt mind actually cos i KNOW abit how to work around things. It wasn't like i dont know wat to do and needed to be told always. Except for the LOA thingy, it was my FIRST time to do LOA for people myself. So come on, im learning. And im trying my best to do the best for the club. im not stress of anything. im pissed off most of the time rather den stress. FINE i mean. if people wanna see an organised and real committee, den i will give out EVERYTHING on the next meeting. I believe in this committe. I really do. I know we CAN get work done and definitely can do what we plan. But it is just a new way of working. it is our way of working and doing stuff. It can be better or it may be bad. But i believe we are on the right track cos we always think about what we doing and we believe in it. We didnt cancel things out last minute and we are not too ambitious(so far). We keep ourself busy but not too busy. And of all, we believe in each other and are open in every ways. For that, im sure we can be successful in our own ways. We doesnt need to prove it in words but through our actions. I know i have to be tough and strict and etc, but i dont wanna make the mistake that i had saw too many time... it is that of people began to think you as someone in higher position ONLY. I wanna change that concept. I dont wanna be strict wif people but i wanna be me as well as respected by others. That is my way... hehs~
Even though we are in higher post, i still wanna people to follow me becos of wat i had done for them.. i wanna them to follow me becos they wan to and willing to... i wanna them to follow me becos they respect me and they look up to me.. i wanna them to follow me because they acknowledge my position... and that is the highest position of Leadership. Not by force, displine and brute.. but by commitment, achievement and respect. From wat i feel so far.. people follow me becos of my position, becos of wat i did for them and becos i was look up to to lead them. And that is my journey up to leadership. I can sense respect for each other in them. And honestly, im proud of them. I know that watever i need, seek and want.. it can be done due to the effort put up by everyone. Thanx guys~...
And so... im not stressed out or anything. Its more like worrying. There is a fine line between stress and worried. i am quite happy wif the ways and efforts and initiative of the committee as well as the members. I appreciate all that. It was my fault that i always done things by myself, but then, that is my way as the artist and person. It is the end result that i look forward to. It can be quite frustating but the end result always are great and sensational. Hakz. Of course now i have to open up more to my committee and share wif them that feelings. haha... it will be cool..
Aside from that, i been soo tired. Tired due to trying to adapt to changes. Hakz. But me and priya see that we will go fine. We can do it! haha... ( im just excited now actually)~ haha... im sure that things will work out fine now. Thanx priya for the assurance. haha... i may seem bz.. and i am lar.. but i kinda have my own time to have fun.. haha.. its beginning to get more fun now.. this is where it is really starting to begin.. haha.. This is the start of the committee journey.. for better future?? we believe in it. hakz.
*i am a happpppy.. lalala*
~tata~
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