Hello to all my fans... *ya rrriiittee*... hehs... Here i am.. wee~... Soo tired...
Haha.. So yah.. just came back from the gang outing.. i woke up at 10am (early sia!) to cut my hair.. damn... My hair lloookk soo nerd... wahhh!! dats why i rather keep my long hair cos its messy and match my style.. damn.. But nvm.. relax.. It will grow very fast one.. Have to cut becos tmr starting work at old place back.. yesh... Grand Hyatt Hotel *eyes wide open while drooling and saying "waaaahhhh...."*.. ya rite.. haha..
So yah... wear the "stylish-to-go-to-town" style.. haha.. So meet bul, mag, fri and ishi at the sports hall... So yah.. Den after prayer we go to interchange to take mrt.. KNOW WAT!!.. ISHI BOUGHT IPOD NANO!!!! ass... nvm.. pui... later i buy... haha.. ok ok.. den after dat we when to dhoby ghaut but ishi went home cos work at 6pm.. So yah.. Meet mok.. never get to watch the "Corpse Bride" cos ticket full for the 3.10pm show.. So we didnt go.. haiz.. So we go eat at KFC.. and den after eat we go walk walk at Plaza Singapura(PS).. haha... We go in the Yamaha... woah.. the guitars were like heaven... shit.. haha... nvm.. i got mine oredi.. buek.. haha... So yah..
After dat we hang out at starbuck waiting for safiah... Den we go walk2 abit more den after dat we go to Raffles Place.. to watch Ronin gig.. yeah.. we arrived at 5.40 pm but the gig start at 6.30pm... So we took pictures by the river which is sooo damn nice lar.. hehe.. Den after dat we watch the gig which is acoustic... But still damn nice lor... haha.. after the gig.. we saw this building wif a lift that is moving up and down fast... Sooo guess wat... Me, fri, mok and safiah took dat lift!!! wee~.. at first theres this sign "AUTHORIZED PERSONAL" and cannot open the glass door by outside to enter the leave.. we wait for a person to come out then we sneak in lar.. hehe... Mag and bul dont dare.. WOW!.. we go up to the 58th FLOOR!!!!!! aaahhh!! and the lift was damn fast lor.. so scary.. we saw everyting up high!... man.. when we came down we are still shaky sia.. haha..
Den safiah(manager) introduce us to the Ronin singer.. haha.. cool.. Den we go take the train and make jokes all the way.. haha.. Den we go down at Simei eat banquet.. SLuurpp..~.. hehe.. So yah.. Den after eat etc.. go home.. haha... So basically.. its all laughter, peace and joy today... wahaha... and yeah.. tmr morning working... WEE~~~~.. haha ok ok enuf oredi... ~tata~
Fadz Was Last Hear At; 10:08 PM
Hello.. So yah.. hakz.. Now okay oredi..
Haha.. As usual.. a stupid "fight".. haha.. haiz..
So tired.. Went to meeting juz now.. haha.. ok ah.. den go home.. hehe
So tomorrow.. woohooo~...
Go watch gig at orchard maybe.. wahaha.. Bul and Mag vote for gig.. Mok vote for Corpse Bride.. Me and Alfri anyting... Safiah oso gig... Den ishi is work.. wahaha.. So tmr den decide lar.. so
penat~ tired ~...
Ok den.. goodbye peepz... ~tata~
Fadz Was Last Hear At; 12:40 AM
F****!!
There i was making some efforts to talk....... And there she was making the same f****ing silence! Wat am I!.... A dumbass?!
Ass... Here i am just settled a hurtful topic.. And im damn tired since yesterday not enough sleep and oso today.. And i have a heck of practise today and whole day outside.. And here i am ending my day wif getting pissed off.... And having the effort making a fool out of myself!
Fine then!...
~tata~
Fadz Was Last Hear At; 1:10 AM
Im feeling abit down.. haiz.. About feelings.. Mess up feelings.. I dunno..
That's the problem! I dunno!... I like her.. Im close wif her.. Yes.. Its been long since i am steadiless.. Yes.. I know.. But.. Now im confuse... omg.. why must i feel like this... Its quite frustrating thinking bout dis kind of things...
Im confuse... about everyting.. Is she the girl... Does she really love me... Is things gonna work.. Will i have my time.. Will it last.. Is that wat i wan.. n the list goes on... haiz... I dunno... really... I dunno...
What shud i do ah? To tink of it.. I kinda miss... ya.. hakz... dunno lar..
~tata~
Fadz Was Last Hear At; 2:04 AM
So today meet Harbi onli... Yazid didn't come.. Gosh... haha.. So yeah... We meet at arnd 12+ pm.. So den we go eat.. haha.. actually not we.. Me lar.. Harbi full oredi.. So harbi treat me a drink.. haha.. Dunno why.. haha.. So kind.. hakz.. Den after eat.. we actually sit at outside the office on the table to make our song.. Den came along Shah.. haha.. So he joined us instead of doing his SIP... haha...
So yeah... we talked, chat, joke and etc etc.. haha... Den at 3+ memek sms me to go out.. But sorry mek.. haha.. my thing havent finish.. Sorry ah.. haha.. Lain kali ah k.. haha.. Very SoRrY.. hehe.. So yah.. We stay until 6+ and manage to come up wif part of the songs.. haha.. Got the ppl in Dramatec names n etc... Sssshhh... *dont tell you*.. haha... So yah... haha.. Funny ah.. Great time... Den at first we wanna play pool den we cancel cos Shah have to go home to fix the pc.. So yah.. haha
So me and Harbi den thought play xbox at downtown... I cant play at my house cos my games was borrowed by someone.. So yah.. haha.. but ok ah.. $3 per hr.. We play many games and keep laughing so hard.. haha.. So funny ah play the games.. haha... And i keep tricking harbi and we had fun.. so yah.. haha.. Very fun.. haha.. And after dat we have to pay $7 after 2 1/2 hr of playing... haha.. And harbi paid all.. omg.. He insist.. its like sooo generous of him.. Cos $$ is abit hard u see... Anyway thanx harbi!.. haha.. So much fun today..
So tmr gonna go skewl meet them again.. Shah, Harbi and dis time.. Yazid will come.. haha.. Soo fun.. Cannot wait.. hehe.. Ok ok.. Until tmr den... tired ah.. haha.. ~tata~
ps. Sorry memek!!!!!!!!!! SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY!!!!.. hehe..
Fadz Was Last Hear At; 10:39 PM
haha.. So today i dream a stupid dream... Here how it goes
The world was invaded by alien. And human force keep trashing the alien spaceship and firing them. But got this one mothership which is firing laser beam that is difficult to fire at. So its kinda like "The War of The World"... wahaha!.. but the hero is not tom cruise... wahaha... guess wat... its me.. haha.. i keep dodging the aliens machines dat is destroying everyting... And i tried to find a way to destroy those ships.. Then Suddenly.. when the best part came.. I woke up... wth... haha... Stupid dream.. hahaSo yah.. Stupid dream rite;... haha.. Den at 3.00pm i go to school.. 4pm got the moon ppl practise.. haha... its fun lar.. haha... Only the lead actressess.. wah piang.. like suck up to everyone ler... People say anyting she agree and act very "enthusiastic"... but she quite chio leh.. So cannot help it lar.. hehe.. Den after dat at 6.20pm i took the bus to go home.. Shit.. I was stuck in the traffic infront of the Sports Hall for about 30 min to get in to interchange.. Then took number 3 and it took me another 10 min.. So i took 1 hr + to get home.. Becos of the constuction work on the road.. ass... haha.. Den somemore plus these school kids.. Secondary i tink... like shit... One of them lost the school shirt.. and half the journey he keep repeating loudly.. "Shit.. i lost my shirt sia".. Nabeh.. i like want to shout at the boy sia... like say so many time.. wth.. haha
Ok ok./. So tmr im gonna go school meet yazid n harbi.. and Saturday den i go back work..haha,... wah piang... haha ~tata~
Fadz Was Last Hear At; 9:30 PM
woohooo~ i changed my blog oredi.. hehe...
Thanx to Memek!!! haha... thank you!! hehe.... So how how.. hehe.. nice rite? hehe... of course... hehe... Thanks mek!!... wahaha...
And yeah.. tmr go to drama Moon people.. and tuesday.. back to my old work place... Wee~
~tata~
Fadz Was Last Hear At; 12:40 AM
Helloo... A few days never blog... haha... Not dat long lar.. haha... Ok...
So On Thursday... We go jamming at 4-5.30... Cos magg have to go rugby so its okay... Den me, alfri and mok go eat at Banquet until quite late lar.. Den at nite... arnd 12am.. Mok was kinda forced to call me so that she know how to sing the two new songs... "Goodnite" and "Im just a fool".... haha.. But we end up talking craps till arnd 3 am... Den the next day... i woke up at 10+ den go to school to meet Yazid and Harbi to discuss on the monologue thingy... Yes... We will be doing our own music,.... haha... So yah... haha...
Den later afterward.. i and yazid go prayer wif magg and bul.. alfri have sport day so cannot join.. So yah... We den go eat at LJS... Den yazid go home and me, mag n bul went meet mok at library.. Den we go Bul's crib until late nite doing crazy stuff like mad person and etc.. wahaha! .. Never go meeting cos i dunno its still on cos Shah and hally said cancel so i tot yah... haha...
Den today... Saturday.. We went jamming at Novena... wif our invited guest.. Memek... haha... yeah... from 3.30-6... we played all the 8 songs and practise it again and again.. haha.. woah... cool.. haha.. Den we tired out then i went to Changi Airport to join my whole family + uncle and grandma eat swensen... haha.. woah... the peepz den go bugis to hang out awhile.. haha...
So yah... at Swensen... I order soooo many food (as usual).. haha.. i ordered wat everyone want.. Den i ordered myself a Sarsaparilla, Chicken Teriyaki burger and then chicken cutlet... and den my table only got 10 ice cream!... we got this 1 big table and 2 small table for everyone as the place is bz... haha... woah.. + my sister's table.. so yah... arnd 15 and + ice cream... wahaha!... Den after dat we all chill at the airport and let the kids play the playground.. going home i buy the lemon sherbet ice blended... Slllluuurrppp!~... haha...
So yah... Im moving in to my old work back maybe next week.. wee... miss those guys... They keep askin how i am.. haha... So yah... Will surprise them all!.. haha.. ok ok... ~tata~
Fadz Was Last Hear At; 11:31 PM
Hey... Im listening to music cos waiting for 3pm to go out.. So yah... And i like this song very much.. By Good Charlotte- Another Perfect Day... Yeah... hmm... So here is the lyric... hakz... woo~
I'm holding on
Waiting for your call
It simple but i can't explain this
Im sinkin down
Feel like i could die
I'm falling off i don't know why
Chorus:
I still believe it when u say
Its another perfect day
Another perfect day.... (x2)
So i might try
To leave it all behind
I know tomorrow not so bright now
I say goodbye
Cos nothing good can last
U wearing fade u nowhere fast
Until the day
I dont know how
To keep it all inside
But i guess all that is like
Chorus.....
So dats some part of it.. Some of the lyric i cant actually catch but i guess thats pretty much. Yeah... This song is lovely.... Simple yet very nice... And hold on deep meaning. Yeah... So gtg now... Before i get very the soft... haha... ok ok.. ~tata~
Fadz Was Last Hear At; 11:32 AM
yes... im getting bored i mean... This past few days just strum my guitar and make complete the 2 songs... the lyrics... and etc...
I'm actually getting tired of this.... Its like im doing the songs alone at home so we can have more songs... Yes.. You all can say what kind of song you wan.... Ishi will be like asking me to make songs like "my chemical romance", Mag will wan songs like "Holiday-Greenday" and alfri... "Bravery"... Woah... so easy for you to say.. Yalar.. just say and va va voom... all this songs will appear in just a minute... YOUR head!... Haiz... im bored lar okay... But at least i can see effort make by ishi to make songs and mok for completing the songs i gave her.... haiz...
Why can't the whole band mit occasionally NOT for jamming at the studio but making songs under the void deck or someone house... Wont it feel good.. Everyone happy wif the songs and its like a whole band song... If not.. There is sure someone unhappy about a song.. Either its too hillary duffy... Or its too draggy... haiya...
Nvm lar... Just hope everyone will buck up soon... Even if it includes me.. Yeah... ok then... ~tata~
ps. Im bored....argh~ and sorry kay!.. hehe... Quite tired ah to meet at tecno at 7pm.. Its late anyway.. haha... *peace*
Fadz Was Last Hear At; 10:31 PM
Confuse... I feeling it now... haiz...
So anyway... today is a musical day... i mean... yah.. i got out another 2 songs which is 1 is rock and another is pop punk.. wif the guitar lead and etc.. woo~.. this zoom gadget is very woah... im gonna buy it soon... wee~... haha...
So yah.. tmr dunno wan to follow kenny anot since he asked me to follow.. hakz.. Stay at home always quite boring ah.. haha.. so yah.. hakz..
ok then.. ~tata~
Fadz Was Last Hear At; 11:59 PM
hey... yes... im here...
Today my 2 nieces bdae... got total of 8 nieces.. haha... so yah.. all my sis and bro in laws come and celebrate the bdae.. For me today is very relaxing... so yah...
Haiz... Why am i suppose to be like him? Dat is wat i dont understand... yeah... No.. not my family, gang, classmates and peepz.. but of particular person.. He/she know wat im talking about.. haiz...
And anyway.. thanx mok for hearing me out and advise me on the relationship matters.... You nearly know all my secrets eh.. haha.. wth... haha... and Yes.. i will be ur hair stylist when u cut ur hair.. haha... wan it like the american nect top model? ya rite.. haha.. so ~tata~
Fadz Was Last Hear At; 1:01 AM
ok ok.. here i am once agian.. yeah...
Know wat.. i realized something.. last tym when i blog about hurts and feelings... Others start to blog the same too... Now i blog about friendship... Yes.. guess wat.. yeah you are rite... kaoozzz.. No other topic meh u can originally blog.. I know ah freedom of blogging but please leh.. aiyah...
kk.. Anyway.. Today go jamming.. Mag, Mok and Fri came to my house to jam... Mag go to a certain extent to get a better gadget so i can use... Soooooo 'swit' rite diz maggi-head... *haha.. no offence mag.. just kidd* yeah... but cool ah.. So i can play my lead solo oredi.. wee... So yeah.. my mom left $50 for me to get the guys food cos evertym the came, food is there but today my mom going out so yeah.. The ywant pizza but i dont cos oredi eat always so we eat KFC sooo damn full our stomach.. wahaha..
Yeah.. Den we jam and following us is our 'manager' lar.. haha... She got contacts wif music industry and offer to be manager.. So yeah... goo ah.. She follow us today and she was impressed! woohoo~ she sms me later at nite to say how proud she was.. haha.. yeah... Im proud of them too...
So dats all for now.. ~tata~.. haha... and btw... mag blog about we being friends for so long and still very close even if we out of secondary school*where others grp usually fall apart*.. Yeah mag.. I agree wif u... yeah... u guys just rawk my underwear... hakz.. ~tata~ again!
Fadz Was Last Hear At; 11:20 PM
Singapore songs... Sung by kids...
I open my eyes and tot it was still National Day.. Then i realized it is from the tv and im like omg.. haha.. I look out the window... yes Kay.. Just checking the sun.. haha.. apperently it isnt 5 time bigger and all is still the same.. So im like "sunspot??"... haha...
Yeah.. read some ppl blog... Yeah... About friendships...
What is friendship?
hmm... A relationship btw friends... yeah... Of course in everyone life.. They had either lose frens or gain frens.. What i can only say that those who actually leave me, nah.. Im not on the loss.. yeah.. They are on the loss.. Cos their mind is so narrow dat they can only think of not being friend wif u or me... Which is a childish thinking of course.. Yeah.. Everyone treasures friendship.. Sometimes u feel dat u did'nt do much for ur friends... But think... Just do what u can... Be the way u are.. if the person dont like it or etc... Its their loss.. yeah... Not ours... True friends/good friends accept you the way you are and not for the money, style or watever physical attraction and they understand you.. yes... that's true friends...
And everyone of course always put up a 'smiley-face' in front of each other when they actually have problems inside.. Its good actually... Why be bothered by ur problems when u wif each other??? Just forget them awhile and enjoy the fun and laughter.. However... If the problems is too much to handle.. You never know if the friend u are wif rite now could actually be a listening ear and listen to your problem.. This could actually strengthen the friendship as your friend might be thinking "he/she comes to me to pour her heart out.. im touched"... Yes.. you never know..
So orait now.. maybe this answer the doubts some of u are having rite now... ~tata~
ps. friendship are never mend to be forged by fake smile and acting. It is meant to be gain as your life goes on.......
Fadz Was Last Hear At; 11:08 AM
Hey.. Im back... I mean i just got back.. yeah...
Go the NS thing today which waste my nearly 2 hrs trip becos when i defer den i can actually just go. kaozz... haha.. Den i go home, change clothes and mit the Kenny, Mei Li and Zhang Wen at the koi pond.. the others haven come.. so yah.. We go ahead first.. meeting start at 3.. Before dat Harbi come and i give him some guitar lesson... Yeah... Den 3- nearly 6pm got the meeting.. Suppose to go do something wif the gang but i cancel ah cos too late.. haha... Well my fellow old-timer peepz... U know i cant stay still very long rite.. haha.. So i have to bear with it.. haha... Den I, Kay, Kenny and Harbi go eat techno while nad n melvyn go eat at TM.. yeah.. we hang out from 7-9.30 pm talking bout religions, dreams, mysteries and the end of world and etc.. haha.. Very fun ah.. Den we took the bus and Kay and Harbi offer to wait at my usual bus stop to chat some more so yeah.. we chat until 10.30pm! haha... This is "drama-family" bonding.. haha.. so yeah..
And tmr i dunno whether i wan to have the jamming session or i wanna go to National Library for research wif dramatec.. So yeah... haha.. tired ah.. haha.. k k..~tata~
ps. I got a waiter role for Moon people which got 3 songs + 1 solo i tink! ~die~ *screams*
Fadz Was Last Hear At; 10:59 PM
Yeah hi...* here i am once again.. i'm torn into pieces...* follow kelly clarkson song lar.. haha
haha.. So yah.. im here but not torn into pieces lar.. haha.. So... Today...
Well.. Today is a sick day oso.. I feel sick so yah... Haha.. Just now go jamming.. We improvise the "secret lover" song and now i have to get the guitar solo.. kaozzzz... haha... Quite headache lar.. haha.. So yah... Stupid room.. haha... So saturday next jamming... And we all quite broke now after having to pay all the stupid jamming sessions we had... gosh.. how i wish we could get a sponsor soon so we can have our own studio.. haha... mayb in near future to come.. so yah...
well.. Still sick.. Tmr or today actually.. must wake up earlier a bit at 6am to go to CMB for the NS deferment thingy and 4 hrs exercises... nabeh.. haha..
~tata~
Fadz Was Last Hear At; 12:29 AM
ok peepz... let me explain my previous entry which i actually change due to some mistaken error..
The previous entry which some of u had read is about something else... Its actually about a group of mine playing musics and being a "band".. yeah... we got our name... "StripeLife" ... yeah... and we got two potential upcoming gig in January... Well.. the prob is... i'm angry for a reason... Which i tink the band know.. yeah... dats all... But i dunno how it will pull tru lar...
Ok ok.. So now.. Im feeling ok lar.. Just sick.. i mean REALLY sick... cough... Just got back from a quite blasting class chlalet... yeah... Suppose to go back today but im sick and tired oso... So i dont tink im going back niwae since the most peepz are going home oso.. haha.. Sorie ah class...
Now i just woke up and still feeling dizzy.. But ok a bit.. hahaha//... Thanx~ tata~
Fadz Was Last Hear At; 4:05 PM
nothing..
Fadz Was Last Hear At; 11:08 PM
Here i am... yeah.. once again.. haha
So today suppose to jam at 3 pm but i postpone it to 6.20 pm cos of work.. Yes... work.. as a flyer.. no.. not fly... flyer distributor.. wahaha... yeah... Becos of Ishi who sms me late at 2 am so dat i will follow him n change the timing.. so yeah...
Meet ishi at 10am today who is very early for once.. wahaha.. Me, ishi n my couz.. yeah.. go this Aztec building to report.. haha.. so we overshot a bustop but yeah.. we manage to go tru the thick, heavy atmosphere of the... no no.. not jungle... but the construction worker... haha.. So then we got this "nice" *faint* shirt to wear... which is a piece of sh*t wif the wordings.. yah... haha.. Den we go bugis... We took bus 61 which i dont know where we going but i say juz go up and which SURPRISINGLY end us up at Bugis!!! yeah.. our instinct very good or its luck today...
haha... we do the job from 12-6pm.. yeah.. basically stand and make a stupid face while give out the flyer.. yeah... Mostly we relax and walk here and there and joke arnd n etc.. haha.. throw some fliers in the dustbins here n there but heck... haha... at 5pm we are oredi relaxing coz we finish and we just sing stupid songs and etc...
At 6.20pmwe arrive at simei but guess wat.. The others are still at City Hall!! Which of course make me mad! Its obvious dat if i say 6.20... Den take the initiative and dont be such a wth and come late lar.. i mean.. Me n ishi work but we make it to pint to come at time so we left at 5.60pm. They shud oso left arnd that tym wat... but no... they late... So yeah.. get my anger up awhile...
Den we got this "i-hate-very-much-becos-the-guitar-just-suck!" room dat we usuallly doo!!! arrghh.. but ok ah.. Still can bring the songs.. Which was like woah of course.. haha.. yeah... So after dat go home.. yeah... tired out....
So tmr to my dear monkey.. oopss.. i mean brother*buek*... Happy Bdae! ok.. ~tata~...
Fadz Was Last Hear At; 10:37 PM
Hello peepz and blogger..
Today a fine day... Go prayer wif the gang and den go eat... Alfri go home faster cos the sister no one to take care for.. Den Bul after eating go home for awhile.. Me, mag n my couz, Is, go somewhere 1st and plan to mit the bul later for pool..
Haha.. but we end up at bul house to watch DVDs... We watch Amytavylle Horror and oso Dodge Ball... actually wanna watch the cave but nvm.. haha.. watch dvd until 8pm.. When bul mom came hm.. wahaha.. she cook us some food.. burp~.. haha... yeah..
So tmr gonna have a long jamming day and Sunday gonna have to celebrate that Bul bdae..(he hinting me so much so FORCED to lar.. haha.. juz kidd..* yeah.. haha..
~tata~
Fadz Was Last Hear At; 10:41 PM
Hey there..
Im so tired and full now.. wahaha.. doing nothing
So yah.. suppose to follow the cam whoring but i lazy so i didnt go.. haha.. But i meet Kenny and Hally at 7pm go play pool den go do something.. haha...
So yah... Mit them play pool.. and i win all.. as usual.. haha... So she tired.. we end game faster lar.. haha..
k k.. Nothing much to blog..~tata~
Fadz Was Last Hear At; 12:12 AM
Finish paper today... AT LAST! woohoo~
Surprisingly.. the paper i put in spiritual effort is the most easiest.. Not that it is very easy.. But amg the 3 papers.. it is like pure light shining to us giving us the hope and glimpse of the future... *wahaha*
yeah.. CARC... Computer Architecture.. the most hated but the most manageable amg the 3 papers *FNDB and C Maths* wahaha... Lucky....
And i found out.. mayb i will get B or B+ for my PRSP total... my java project i was told is A! woohoo~ but plus the last tym all.. drag to B or B+.. Dunno if can get A.. haha...
And to my classmates... I know that you guys want me to come chalet but i must see 1st... i maybe busy and maybe not... so i will see 1st... OK? haha...
~tata~
Fadz Was Last Hear At; 9:17 PM
OK OK everyone... Im better today.. yeah.. Dont mean to scare anybody.. haha...
So yah... 2 down and 1 to go.. I mean papers.. The C maths quite diff and the FNDB.. haiz... *sweating* haha... so yah
Tired.. gonna continue study.. tmr last paper den can enjoy! woohoo~ haha ~tata~
Fadz Was Last Hear At; 9:26 PM
Yeah.. what the hell..... u got it rite..........
Maths paper was quite tough today... its quite ok.... shucks..... And now going to study for FNDB... haiz...
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YES! im writing nonsence.. so as to let all out.. aargh! ... Feeling sucks! Let me just say dis.. please.. without any bad comments... please...
All this while i have people looking at me in different lights... Yeah.. I done good in things... Ok in studies... I can please people.. Help people... Be nice.. Be their best friend.. Hear their problems and help and share and etc.. But hell! when 1 mistake made.. every good things is forgotten and all the negative things is back... yeah! ALL seems like my fault.. all seems like i did something wrong... I hate this kind of life.. Why can't people just see the way i really am... Why didnt they wanna know me as Fadzley... The real me.. I know im irritating sometimes but SO? SO WAT! I am me and you are you. I accept you the way u are but why cant u?? U know wat.. I even be friends wif people who other people dislike or disgusted or hate or wtf but wat do i care! They are humans too for goodness sake! Try to put urself in their shoes! So what can you do if you are born dat way?! U wanna kill urself?! GO AHEAD! I DONT REALLY CARE ANIMORE! ppl took me for granted so yes.. Welcome my DAMN SIDE NOW... yeah.. Im sick of this.. I really am... You wanna see the other side of me? I have been keeping this damn devil within me from dunno when.. I have been putting up a smile or a relax face even though inside Im angry, sad or dissapointed.. yeah... Now.. i dunno... haiz.. Dats all i wanna say... thanx.. and hey guess wat... Some of u reading this will be like.. "oh... poor faz.." or "wat the.. alah.. want pity ah.." Then no thanx but keep ut comment... I dont really need an insincere pity.. OK...
And for ur info.. im not referring to my family or my gang... I love them very much and I know they do too... It is like a real family wif them(my gang)... thanx.. really a big thanx... At least they are there when i need them... yeah... They maybe irreplaceble... yeah... and hey... mayb if u reading this then u feel guilty all kind den maybe u shud just get a life and stop judging people but judge ur !!$()&!($)& life 1st OK! haiz .... who knows...and thanx... ~tata~
Fadz Was Last Hear At; 11:57 PM
I made another song.. yet again....
A song that makes my finger pain.. But it rocks...
I know i shud be studying.. But its in me for guitar...
Yeah.. Another song to add in our album.. Which we have a total of 6 songs... and actually there is another 5 more songs but I dont want to use as it is incomplete.. yeah...
Woohoo~
Fadz Was Last Hear At; 12:13 AM
Yeah.. you got it rite.. Im sooo bored today.... Sitting at home whole day planning to study but at last study late cos i been sleeping whole day... nice weather... aniwae later can sleep late wat.. tmr paper is at 2.30pm.. so yah....
Haiz... Someone is upset... Yah... Our small sister mok... She upset dunno why.. about personal feeling... haiz.. relax mok relax... And hey... We got out another 3 songs.. so yah... Its great...
Yesterday suppose to go IPDS but someting cropped up.. Sorry Kay... Really sorry ah...
And now.. Im gonna study again soon.. Just taking a break.. so yah... haha.... I will leave u all wif my thought of the day... hakz...
Thought of the day:
What's life going to be in the near future? Am I going to be a popular rockstar or am i gonna be a business man? Is my study going sky high, average or down? Am i going to have a girlfriend that will stay wif me tru out or only for a while??
For me... I wanna be a rockstar.. really.. I wanna have my band performing live.. In front of everyone... Would'nt it be great... Having the band playing songs after songs.. getting popular.. Get paid for each performance we enjoy... Its great... I hope we will achieve our dream.. My study.. Know what i realise... All this while.. I didnt really study much.. But i still manage to get B's and some C's and sometimes A's! I been thinking.. What if I have been studying?? Am i just plain lazy or am i just easily not interested? hmm... And my love life.. Not that i have any doubts.. But how will it goes? What if my band really achieve our dreams of a popular punk/rock band.. Will she be there in the crowd wif her friends cheering me out? hmm... Who knows... haha
Yeah.. Its my thought again.. Now going study.. So ~tata~
Fadz Was Last Hear At; 10:18 PM
Hey.. Just got back from outside... Went Suntec wif the peepz... yeah... Go walk walk and celebrate Magg bdae.. Not actually a bdae celebration.. but oh well... we'll make up... And yeah... I got the next song out... A new title actually... "I'll be there"... Sooo yah... haiz...
A thought in mind.... :
Why do people need to hate or misjudge other people? Its a tendecy of people to speak behind others.. oh shucks... Its human way... So yah... But why do people misjudge others when they know them for only a few days, weeks and mths??? Is months even enough?? Im not talking bout my gang.. But outside... yah...
As for me you see... I really appreciate my gang... Know and been wif them for 4 years ++ ... We know each other soooo well that we dont really mind of each other "behaviour".. I mean.. My gang knows that when i give them the kinda "im fed up" looks.. they will not hate or blame me but it will be lyk.. "oh totz.. its his way wat... haha.. sorie ah totz..." and etc.. If i keep quiet.. they know that im not an anti-social but they know im tired or mayb im angry.. If im happy they will share it wif me... haiz... So yah... Most people's "gang" disperse right after O'Level and etc but we.. we are still very close... hakz... Its great... really great...
nvm then... its my thought actually.. ~tata~
Fadz Was Last Hear At; 8:48 PM
hehe.. How are you...?
Im fine thank you...
Today is a nice day... pointless but fun... Go out wif Kenny and play pool which I conquered.. Win him 12-1... woohoo~ hehe... Den we hang out abit den go home lor... haha,,.
Download and install many software today.. games oso.. And im quite bored....
Tomorrow is Magg(my basist) b'dae! HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY MAGG!! woohoo~
Dunno whats happening tmr.. either go celebrate or wat.. haha... so yah... hakz...
Now i wanna relax.. ~tata~
Fadz Was Last Hear At; 10:46 PM
